Not Finishing Books.

I’m reading The Brothers Karamazov by Dostoyevsky at the moment, as I said in my previous post, Five Books. I’d given up reading Stephen King’s Under the Dome, I decided it was taking a very long time – it’s incredibly long – and I could be reading other stuff that I might take more from. But I was disturbed by the dirtiness of abandoning a book halfway through. It’s wrong. I didn’t finish it though, and I went on to read a collection of Charles Bukowski short stories, The Most Beautiful Woman in Town and Other Stories, then The Trial by Franz Kafka. I think that those two books and the third or so of The Brothers Karamazov that I’ve read now probably equal the second half of Under the Dome that I didn’t read in terms of pages. 

I think that I have gained more by reading those three rather than the second half of Under the Dome, but maybe I’m just being a snob, reading ‘literary’ books rather than a bestseller. Nah fuck that – they’re categorised as literary because they are better, they’re works of art, not just entertainment. It’s not snobbery, I don’t think – I’m not reading them because they’re seen as literary, I’m reading them because they are literary; I prefer books to be works of art rather than entertainment.  

Anyway, before this point, I had to decide whether to keep reading Under the Dome just out of duty. There is something unsettling about starting and not finishing a book. It’s like changing the team you support. I’d committed time to that book and now it’s back on the shelf – still cut in half by a makeshift bookmark, left behind like soldiers that haven’t realised a war has ended and are still hiding in jungles – and I look weak and frivolous. Maybe I’ll come back to it though, I was enjoying it, it was just taking too long – when I’m reading it’s because I want to get as much reading done before I die as possible, like I actually consciously think about that when choosing books, and that is pretty much why I didn’t finish Under the Dome. I think The Brothers Karamazov will take longer or at least as long to read as Under the Dome but I don’t mind because I think it’s worth the time. Mortality is definitely one of my primary motivations for reading though. Maybe that’s a subject for another time. Probably not. 

Five Books

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I tried to think of the five books I’ve enjoyed and been affected by the most, and what follows is a list of the five that seem like that right now. If I thought about it again another time, I might have come up with something different. I think that these five books made me the reader and the writer that I am today – I have arranged them in chronological order as far as I can remember.  I read the first towards the end of high school and the last during my first year at university – the time frame of my ‘serious’ reading so far, I think.


 1 – The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde

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In year 11, my final year of high school, I took out a selected works of Oscar Wilde from the library, which included, of course, The Picture of Dorian Gray. Before then I had always liked Literature, and I’d always read a lot, but I think that Dorian Gray is the reason that I study Literature at university. It was the first book I read that was a work of art, rather than entertainment. It seemed important, but most of all it was beautiful.

Beauty and art are the two major themes of the story, as well as what the story is made of. My entire philosophy of art, beauty and aesthetics was built on this novel for years, and to a large extent still is. I just don’t have the stamina to achieve Wildean aesthetic perfection.

I remember that at college – I wrote an essay comparing The Picture of Dorian Gray and The Great Gatsby in AS English Literature – the novel was frequently referred to as Gothic, which I never understood. There’s the dark magic of the painting, but I don’t think that the picture is important. Dorian Gray and Lord Henry are what’s important. The vocabulary of Wilde, the nimble witticisms, that’s what’s important. I hardly remember the story, I just like the way it was told. No, actually, I do have quite a good idea about the story.

I’d be studying art or drama or something if not for this novel, I think, or perhaps something that wasn’t creative at all. The Picture of Dorian Gray showed me – I was going to say ‘power’ but that’s the wrong word – more the depth of the novel as an art form. I read this and books began to replace music as my main interest.


2 – On the Road by Jack Kerouac

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My AS English Literature teacher, Janet, was reading through a list of approved books for our inspired creative writing coursework; we had to write a short story in the style of or otherwise inspired by a novel.

On the Road, that’s Jack Kerouac, umm, the Beat Generation. Do you know the Beat Generation?’ she looked around and no-one did. During the first year of English Literature a lot of the people on the course don’t even like books. ‘Proto-hippies, were the Beats. Jazz, sex, drugs…’  I wish I could capture her taking-no-shit Wigan accent. ‘It’s about driving around America.’ she said, and went on to the next book in the list.

I went to the Harris Gallery Library in Preston during our lunch break. The Harris Gallery is surprisingly good. Me and my girlfriend Grace used to go quite a lot, and I saw the most beautiful painting I’ve ever seen there. It was of an old man spear-fishing in Greece, I think. Me and Grace sat on the bench in front of it and looked at it for ages, occasionally saying something to each other but sat quietly most of the time. It was the way that the sea had been painted that we were so impressed by. The Harris Gallery Library is shit though, but that’s the government not the Harris Gallery’s fault – they receive almost no funding. I’ve never seen a Classics section in a Lancashire Library. They didn’t have On the Road, but they did have The Dharma Bums by Jack Kerouac. I took it out instead.

I almost put The Dharma Bums instead of On the Road for this entry. I’ve read it twice, it definitely did change the way that I read and the way that I write. It’s far more honest than On the Road, less people get fucked over, there are some good people in it – Japhy Ryder/  Gary Snyder is the obvious example. You don’t get many good people living non-parasitic lives in Beat Generation literature, but they are found throughout The Dharma Bums. This book changed the way I see Buddhism, something that I turn to and away from roughly seasonally. Perhaps I’m not mature enough for it yet. There are also two characters that live in a wooden house somewhere on the outskirts of San Francisco, a man and a woman, who have this idyllic, rustic sort of life, with their children running around and their friends visiting for massive stay-over parties. I think he’s a carpenter or wood-worker of some sort. When Japhy and Ray arrive, Japhy presents the woman with a massive sack of oats or flour and she’s really grateful and it’s just wholesome as fuck, I love it. It’s rare that I really want to emulate anything I’ve read about in Beat Generation writing – I normally read it in a state of gentle disbelief (Sal Paradise’s abandonment of Terri – I feel bad that I’m not sure that is her name – in On the Road is a perfect example of this), but there are sections in The Dharma Bums that seem really good, just good. I want to live with my girlfriend Grace like that – I think she does too, The Dharma Bums is the only Kerouac book she can tolerate. But I chose On the Road for this section. I’d have put it as a joint section but I can’t take a photograph of The Dharma Bums, I drunkenly leant it to one of my friends at university and don’t know when to ask for it back. I think he might have had a look at the previous post on this blog – if you’re looking at this post, please can I have it back when we go back to Norwich in Autumn?

I recently re-read half of On the Road, but then lost it when we moved house. I’ve found it again though, and I’m contemplating reading it all again and writing On the Road/Jack Kerouac. I’ll make that a link if I do write it. I’ll leave discussion of the language and the story for when I do that, what I want to talk about – and I think what really (I don’t know whether to say ‘affected’ or ‘effected’ this is ridiculous, my occupation is reading and writing about it, as is my hobby) changed the way I read and write was the way Kerouac wrote On the Road anyway.

The first draft of On the Road was famously written on one long scroll, to avoid having to change the page at each page’s end. I read that he sat at it all day for the couple of weeks that he took to write it, being brought coffee and pea soup by his girlfriend at the time. ‘Write with the zeal of a benny addict’ is what Kerouac taught me. I think that’s the exact quote. Just to write, to not stop writing. To write a lot, quickly. I think it’s a good technique at least some of the time, spontaneous prose. It worked for Kerouac – it’s sort of fashionable to admit Kerouac as a sort of guilty pleasure but to accept he wasn’t a good writer, (I wrote about this in my Rimbaud article) but I think he was a good writer. Clear and beautiful; sunlight in the drip of the tip of a glacier.

Writing about your own life, and the lives of the people around you, interests me too. I’ve never done it – you have to be really dontgiveashit or confident that your friends will understand what you write about them to do so, I think. Kerouac had a good memory – someone called him Memory Babe I think – but he also filled notebook after notebook about what he was thinking, seeing and doing. On the Road is built up from the contents of these notebooks. I’d love to write something in that way. If The Picture of Dorian Gray made me want to study literature, On the Road made me want to create it.


3 – Crime and Punishment by Fyodor Dostoyevsky

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I read Crime and Punishment because I read that Kerouac and his mates liked Dostoyevsky. I bought it from the Oxfam book shop opposite the Harris Gallery in Preston; this one is another book I read whilst I was at college. I remember asking my dad something about it, and he said he knew it was a book people that wanted to be clever said they’d read. I thought about wanting to be clever and about the difference between saying you’d read something and reading something. Then I read it.

I don’t think I’d describe a book as ‘challenging’ – sometimes I might think books are boring, but as long as they’re in English I think I can pick up the fundamental parts. Crime and Punishment is pretty long, not as long as Demons by Dostoyevsky, which I read recently, but pretty long. It isn’t boring though. It isn’t too long. I don’t know – I must have found it quite challenging because it’s the first thing I’m considering about it. I enjoyed it all though, and it gave me an appreciation for deep, heavy, thick writing. It’s like carving from stone rather than origami; a different thing, not better or worse. I’ve since read a few things by Dostoyevsky. Demons did feel like it dragged a bit, in the way I just said Crime and Punishment didn’t. This is getting too close to a review. If you’re thinking about reading Dostoyevsky, read Notes from Underground first – it’s short, but still gives you a good sense of what Dostoyevsky is about. Right now I’m reading The Brothers Karamazov and I’m enjoying it so far – it’s a bit more like the Dostoyevsky I grew to admire from Crime and Punishment and Notes from Underground, rather than Demons. Russianess, darkness of human desires, all that stuff. I think actually I’ll do a feature on Dostoyevsky, I have plenty to say.

I remember at the start of my second term of last year at uni, in the first lesson of a realism module, the tutor asked if anyone had read Crime and Punishment. I said I had, a few others did too. She had been naming books like this and then asking if they were realist texts. I said Crime and Punishment was, as in, nothing inexplicable happens, it’s set on real roads of 19th century St Petersburg, it’s like something that could really happen – that seemed to be realism to me, but she said she disagreed. She might have been thinking of the exploration of Raskolnikov’s thoughts and state of mind, and realism doesn’t examine the internal more than the external. I don’t know – she handed me back my coursework for the module a month late so I’m not sure how seriously I take her.


4 – Trainspotting by Irvine Welsh

I’ve lost my copy of Trainspotting and blame my sister entirely. She has my Junky by Burroughs right now too, and I’m taking that to uni with me whether she’s finished it or not. I don’t want to lose that. It was the orange one – vintage books, some kind of anniversary edition – with orange-coloured page-edges. I want it back. It matches the ‘Choose Life…’ poster everyone has in their uni rooms.

I read Trainspotting before I saw the film, but I think I still knew quite a lot about the book before I read it. People said it was hard to read the Edinburgh dialect in which a lot of it is written – the way Irvine Welsh captures that is so impressive, I wish I could do that with Lancashire accents in my writing. I’ve just realised Junky is about heroin too but that’s not why I brought it up it’s just that I saw it on her desk a few minutes ago – she asked me for something to read and I recommended it a few weeks ago. There are a lot of good books about heroin. I don’t think that’s anything to do with heroin as much as it is to do with dropping out of normal society.

I read Trainspotting, then Porno and finally Skagboys when it came out. I think they might be the only three books by Irvine Welsh I’ve read. I should read something else by him or reread one of those – my memory is actually kind of hazy on some of this stuff but that’s my fault not his. He has created some of the most memorable characters that I’ve ever read – Sick Boy, Begbie and Spud in particular, from those three books.

Trainspotting is a book that more changed the way I think about my own writing than about how I read books – the accent stuff, like I said, but also the use of humour alongside dark-as-fuck absolute atrocity darkest-corners-of-human-soul horror. I watched Filth – the James McAvoy film adaptation – and I thought McAvoy was good, considering his normally pretty clean image. I think he’s good anyway but it’s the best acting I’ve seen from him. Welsh’s writing has a definite aesthetic, something could be described as Welshian. His aesthetic translates to film well too. I don’t like the idea of burdening him with any voice of his generation stuff though – his recognisable aesthetic style is his artistic creation, partially based on observations he’s made about the society he’s seen around him – the different societies he’s seen around him. He was never a protest writer – he just writes about how shit everything can be. Maybe it’s cathartic, I don’t know. I liked it all anyway. It’s all about the perfectly observed characters.


5 – The Old Man and the Sea by Ernest Hemingway

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This was a late birthday present from my friends at uni – I think they’d bought it in time for my birthday but I went home before they’d given it to me. I remember telling Patrick I’d never read it and he was nearly sick all over his nice jeans with shock that I could be studying American literature without having read it. Maybe he wasn’t that shocked but I remember what I said to him. That’s why I got it I think anyway. That and some vegetarian-approved co-op chocolate.

I’ve tried to talk about The Old Man and The Sea and you just can’t without saying that nothing happens and a man just floats about fishing. But that’s the reason it’s in the list – I can’t explain why it’s so good; I can’t understand its beauty through reason at all. It’s the original clear and beautiful – when compared with Kerouac – but it’s actually Kerouac’s scruffiness that makes his writing so beautiful – it makes it more human.

I don’t have much to say about The Old Man and The Sea, or at least I’m not going to say much more. I started this article weeks ago but didn’t finish it and now it’s getting a bit stale. I read the books, they changed my life etc. I’ve enjoyed thinking back to high school and college and stuff though – that’s pretty much the whole point of this – to think about what I was doing when I read stuff, why I read it, how it made me feel. I think that these five are the five I’d have to choose, still. Especially Trainspotting – it brings in a modernish element. The world of lit students can get too fucking full of old, old books.


[6 – The Hobbit by J.R.R. Tolkien]

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[Bonus entry – I’m not going to say anything about it but The Hobbit has to be included in this list – as I said in my The Fellowship of the Ring article it’s important to me.]

Life Around Books: Arthur Rimbaud

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Pagan blood returns! The Spirit is near. Why will Christ not come to my aid, covering my soul with nobility and freedom? Too bad. The Gospel’s over and done with! The Gospel! The Gospel.

I’m avid for God. Since the beginning of time I’ve belonged to a lesser race.

And here I am on the shoreline of Brittany. Let the lights go on in the cities at dusk. My day is done; I’m leaving Europe. The sea air will burn my lungs; godforsaken climates will char my skin. I’ll swim, trudge the grass under foot; I’ll hunt. Above all I’ll smoke; drink liquors as fierce as molten metal, like my dear ancestors around their fires.

I shall return with limbs of iron, dark skin, a furious aspect. From my mask I’ll be thought to belong to a mighty race. I shall have gold: I shall be slothful and brutal – the ferocious invalid back from the tropics, fussed around by women. I’ll be embroiled in politics. Saved. 

Right now, I’m damned. My country appals me. The best course of action: drink myself comatose and sleep it off on the beach. 

– From A Season in Hell.


 

I first met James at a nightclub in Norwich. We were talking about what poets we liked and I listed Rimbaud. He either said he hadn’t read anything by him or he asked what my favourite poems by him were. I think it was the latter – I think he told me that they read Rimbaud sometimes at Automatic Society.

‘Oh, erm, ‘Le Bateau ivre’, and, Une Saison en Enfer…’  I said. I was excited, I could hardly get my words out, shouting above the vibrating bass of the deep house music that beat out of the dark in the next room. I couldn’t remember the English titles of the poems. The seat was sticky. James drank some water and asked me if I was on MD.

‘No, no, I just really like Rimbaud.’


 

The first time I spoke to another friend from university, Leo, a group of people were stood out on the Suffolk Terrace walkway – Suffolk Terrace is one of the on-campus accommodation buildings at UEA – passing joints around in the dark. I was talking about Charles Baudelaire. Leo joined in.

‘I think he’s the sort of poet you’re expected to grow out of.’ I said.

‘No, you grow out of Rimbaud, man; you progress to Baudelaire.’ he replied, and I agreed. He told me another time that someone told him to only use ‘said’ and ‘asked’ in dialogue attribution.


These two memories from my first year at university are significant in a couple of ways; they show that any lit student that thinks they’re a bit cool wants to talk about Rimbaud, and it shows that any lit student that thinks they’re a bit cool is scared Rimbaud isn’t as cool as he was when we were doing A-Levels. There’s a slight uneasiness around Rimbaud – the same as around Jack Kerouac; everyone thinks they discovered them at college, when no-one around knows who they are – until you get to university, and find out everyone thought the same as you. Arthur Rimbaud and Jack Kerouac are seen as too obvious, like listening to a ‘Best of Bob Dylan’ when you could be listening to Woody Guthrie B-Sides.

Before I begin properly writing about Arthur Rimbaud’s life and poetry, I want to say that writers like Rimbaud and Kerouac aren’t clichés – they invented the clichés they are mistaken for. Both are archetypal in their own way. Cynics think they’re overdone and juvenile, like having Bob Marley and Che Guevara posters in student bedrooms, but I don’t see how this devalues their work. I don’t understand why cynical and little-known writers are better. People like to exercise a crude ‘I-know-something-you-don’t-know’ power over others when talking about art and literature – people who think about books rather than feel. Ranting is overdone and juvenile in blogs, I’m going to stop now.

As with all my favourite writers – and this makes me wonder if I actually know anything about literature – my interest begins and is largely made-up of a fascination with their life. Their work often comes second. Before I read anything by Rimbaud, I read that he influenced a lot of my favourite artists. (I wrote an article for A-Level English Language called ‘Rimbaud’s Legacy’; Jack Kerouac, Bob Dylan, Jim Morrison and Pete Doherty are a few of the artists that have said they were influenced by Rimbaud, and I wrote about all of them in the article.) Next, I saw a photograph of him – the famous one, the one that can be seen on the cover of the Penguin Selected Poems and Letters book in the photograph at the top of this post. I decided I looked like him at the time. I think I probably did. In 2012 or maybe early 2013 I posted on tumblr: ‘My projected literary career is so far based entirely around looking a little bit like Rimbaud’. It was when I read behind and around that photograph, though, that Rimbaud became, I think, my favourite poet. I’ve spent more time reading Graham Robb’s Rimbaud – a huge and exhaustive biography – than I have reading Rimbaud’s poems. I believe that his life was a poem, and that the all of the poems are burning, beautiful footnotes.

I couldn’t begin to go into all of the facts or the legends of Rimbaud’s life, but for anyone who hasn’t heard of him or doesn’t know much about him, I’ll give an outline. He was born in Charleville in 1854 – I think the same year as Oscar Wilde was born. His mother was a very strict Catholic, who put huge pressure on him and his brother to perform well academically. I can’t remember about his brother – I think he had a brother – but Arthur Rimbaud was a student particularly gifted with literature and language, French and Latin. He began to write poems and win awards at fifteen or sixteen, and sent a few to Paul Verlaine, a poet he admired. Shortly after he went to Paris, I think to study under him, although I’m not sure who turned out to learn more from who. I’ve just realised I’ve never read anything by Paul Verlaine. In Paris, Verlaine and Rimbaud began a tumultuous, absinthe- and hashish-fuelled love affair, to the anger and sorrow of Rimbaud’s mother and Verlaine’s wife, which ended in Brussels with a drunk Verlaine shooting Rimbaud in the hand. The best part of it all is that Rimbaud gave up poetry at twenty or twenty-one and became a mercenary, explorer and trader in northern and eastern Africa. He died aged thirty-seven on the way to France to receive treatment for cancer in his knee, I think.

I haven’t gone into all of the offensive and surreal legends about Rimbaud as a young poet in Paris, London and Brussels, there’s too many, but you can read about them online. I’d highly recommend Robb’s Rimbaud too. My favourite story about Rimbaud, though, is that he was visiting a prominent Parisian poet, I think that’s who he was visiting, and whilst he was there the poet began drinking a cup of milk. The poet or artist or whoever they were left the room for a moment, and Rimbaud allegedly got up, wanked and ejaculated into the guy’s milk, sat down and then watched him return and drink the milk.

This is a long post so far, not very 21st Century. These ‘Specials’, focusing on the whole life and work of a writer that I think has had a particular effect and influence on my life will be longer than the ‘/’ articles. They’re the new type of post I was trying to come up with, aiming to avoid monotonous repetition.

I’ve spent a lot of time writing about Rimbaud, now I’ll see if I can say something about his poetry, which, although I have admitted never came first in my fascination with Rimbaud, still is a huge part of it. I do actually care about literature.

Rimbaud was called, I think by Victor Hugo, ‘the infant Shakespeare’, but I think that this is a weak comparison, and definitely not a compliment to Rimbaud. Shakespeare did not perform open heart surgery on the rules of composition, he didn’t try anything new, he was just good at writing more of what people already liked. I read yesterday, in George Orwell’s essay ‘Lear, Tolstoy and the Fool’ that King Lear is heavily based on an earlier play called King Leir. Hugo couldn’t have made the comparison, but ‘the infant Stein’ or ‘the infant Dalí’ might have been more accurate – but, of course, Rimbaud was sixty or seventy years ahead of his time.

The connection I made between Gertrude Stein and Rimbaud comes from the way I see their experiments with language. Early in his life as a poet, Rimbaud aimed to create a language of colours.

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– ‘Vowels’ from Poems 1869-1871.

I’m not sure if being able to read the original French would help to understand this or not. Perhaps the interpretation of the different sounds as colours is too personal to Rimbaud to transfer it to another’s mind. What impresses me about it, what I love about it, is that it takes literature away from ideas and towards feelings. There is no absolute colour of ‘A’ to everyone – Rimbaud just feels it to be the black of the fur-corset of dazzling flies. Not only does Rimbaud feel, he finds new ways to feel. This ‘feeling’ is beginning to sound vague and like a half-conceived idea, but I think it’s the most important thing about any kind of writing but poetry in particular. There should never be any ideas in poetry. But I think there always are.

What I’m writing is hardly a ground-breaking interpretation of Rimbaud’s work, but I’m trying to give an overview of what I like about Rimbaud and what I hope you might like too.

At the very start I mentioned ‘Le Bateau ivre’ and ‘Une Saison en Enfer’. I’ll talk about them and leave it at that – I used ‘Vowels’ to show that Rimbaud was a prematurely born Modernist. I’m using these two to show he’s a great poet, perhaps my favourite.

‘Le Bateau ivre’ – ‘The Drunken Boat’ – I think was the poem that Rimbaud first read to all of the Symbolists or Parnassians or whoever it was that had gathered for Verlaine’s presentation of the genius boy from the Ardennes. Maybe it wasn’t. Apparently he read quietly, childishly, mumbling through the poem and looking down. I really like this detail – the poem is hard and bright and confident. My favourite line from it – perhaps an obvious choice but, as I was saying to start with, obviousness is irrelevant when genuinely responding to a piece of art – is:

‘What men have only thought they’d seen, I’ve seen’.

Told from the point of view of the abandoned and mostly wrecked ‘drunken boat’, the word ‘men’ differentiates between the boat and humanity, but it strikes me as Rimbaud speaking, perhaps to the audience of middle-aged, semi-successful and pleased-with-themselves men before him, men who think of themselves as visionaries and artists and poets – men whose names have been forgotten.

The poem is colourful, it smells too. I like it, and I fully think that the drunken boat is Rimbaud, an obvious interpretation perhaps, I don’t know. I see the poem as a promise of greater art, though – a prophecy. It’s forceful, but it feels almost as though the force of the poem comes from it being pushed forward by the crackling energy of the poems still inside the young Rimbaud, poems like A Season in Hell.

Before I stopped smoking weed, me and a few of my friends went into the woods on the far side of the lake at UEA to smoke. I’d had a few pints beforehand, and I think I’d had some really weak weed the last time I’d smoked, and for some reason assumed that this would be the same, and I smoked it fast and heavily.

I remember it all very clearly – it was time to go, we’d finished. But I couldn’t move.

‘I’m trapped in an idiot’s body,’ I kept saying, ‘I know how frustrating this is for you all, but I just can’t move.’ I recall being exceedingly polite, I think trying to avoid offending or annoying them and making a bad situation worse.

When I tried to move I felt sick, but not sick in a way I’ve felt before or since. Sick like I’d been poisoned. One of my friends tried to pick me up and drag me along, and I think I said that if I was moved I’d die. Maybe I didn’t. I don’t think I believed that, but I felt like that. They got me out of the dark woods eventually somehow, tired, gabbling gibberish and feeling like every drop of moisture had been sucked from my body. After a while I remembered A Season in Hell:

‘I’ve swallowed a tremendous dose of poison. – Thrice blessed be the counsel I received! – My tripes are on fire. The strength of the poison racks my limbs, deforms me, knocks me flat. I’m dying of thirst, suffocating, I can’t cry out. It’s hell, eternal torment! See the flames rise! I’m seared to perfection. Come on, demon!’

Maybe I tried to talk about it. I doubt anyone understood.

This is the first thing I’ve ever written about the experience, though, and it’s hardly creative – Rimbaud’s ‘disordering of the senses’ doesn’t seem to work for me. Bukowski’s argument that drink doesn’t put you down but lifts you up is more in line with my outlook on narcotics and writing, I think. Anyway, that was my season in hell, perhaps not a season, more of a long weekend. Before my time there, and after, though, A Season in Hell has been my favourite Rimbaud piece. A long prose-poem split into several sections. It’s endlessly rich, it’s as much of Rimbaud’s soul as he was ever going to manage to contain on the page. It’s hot to touch.

I’ve written over two-thousand words and I don’t feel like I’m anywhere near explaining how I feel about Arthur Rimbaud and his poetry. Irvine Welsh once said something about style over substance being terrible, but substance without style being infinitely worse. It was Rimbaud’s style that began my interest. Artists I admired were all just Rimbaud fan-boys too, I realised. Jim Morrison became a ripoff, Pete Doherty became a ripoff, even Jack Kerouac did, although not infamous for drug-use as much as those other two, he smoked his fair share of ‘tea’ and even went to Mexico to try to cultivate a heroin habit before getting scared and rushing back to America and the advice of William Burroughs. If they’re ripoffs, I’m a ripoff of a ripoff. I suppose Rimbaud’s a ripoff too, of Baudelaire, and I’m sure there are others that influenced him that I don’t know about. ‘Ripoff’ is perhaps the wrong word. There’s nothing cynical about those three of my creative heroes emulating, or taking inspiration from, Rimbaud – they feel something about him as an icon of poetry, and they feel something about what he has to say and the way he says it. Anyway, Rimbaud’s style drew me in, I’m sure of that. I wanted to know more about him, then I wanted to be like him, maybe even be him. It was all about him at first. Then the substance kicked in. I realised he was a great writer – something which, because he was so fucking cool, I just sort of assumed previously. With works like A Season in Hell, every single word is carved in stone. Black granite. None of it moves, none of it exists without his total conviction. He is the epitome of poetic style as an individual, as an icon, and his poetry is substance of a colossal weight. He has so much of both that it is obscene.

Perhaps it is because he was so young when he was a poet that a lot of literature students or just people who take an interest in literature write him off after sixth form, seeing him as a pre-rock’n’roll cliché, a model of the height of pathetic, pretentious artistic-wankerdom. Perhaps he was too cool – so cool he became a parody of the starving artist in the way that Elvis Presley was too cool and became a parody of the rockstar. Whatever the cause, I see Arthur Rimbaud as a credible poet, a credible artist. More than that, I see Arthur Rimbaud as a great poet, with a far-reaching and enriching influence upon many forms of art. I don’t know what makes a genius, but I think he might have been one, that or an arrogant lowlife. Actually, I think he was both.

The Fellowship of the Ring/J.R.R. Tolkien

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To the left stood a great mound, covered with a sward of grass as green as Springtime in the Elder days. Upon it, as a double crown, grew two circles of trees: the outer had bark of snowy white, and were leafless but beautiful in their shapely nakedness; the inner were mallorn-trees of great height, still arrayed in pale gold. High amid the branches of a towering tree that stood in the centre of all their gleamed a white flet. At the feet of the trees, and all about the green hillsides the grass was studded with small golden flowers shaped like stars. Among them, nodding on slender stalks, were other flowers, white and palest green: they glimmered as a mist amid the rich hue of the grass. Over all the sky was blue, and the sun of afternoon glowed upon the hill and cast long green shadows beneath the trees.

‘Behold! You are come to Cerin Amroth,’ said Haldir. ‘For this is the heart of the ancient realm as it was long ago, and here is the mound of Amroth, where in happier days his high house was built. Here ever bloom the winter flowers in the unfading grass: the yellow elanor, and the pale niphredil. Here we will stay awhile, and come to the city of the Galadhrim at dusk.’


 

I’m not sure why I had only read The Hobbit and Tales from the Perilous Realm of all of Tolkien’s writing until now, and none of The Lord of the Rings Trilogy. I was a fan of the films before I even saw them – when I had only a small understanding of what they were about, me and my friends would ‘play Lord of the Rings’ in the playground at primary school. The first few times I tried to watch the Peter Jackson films I never got past the first orc – I was too scared. My friend went to see The Return of the King when it came out at the cinema, and was taken out crying by his parents. I think eight year-olds are harder to scare these days.

At about this time, or a year or two before, my dad worked at an insurance office, and for some reason this guy used to come every now and then and wholesale books to the three or four people that worked there. My dad bought a big, hardback copy of The Hobbit, illustrated by Alan Lee. He used to read it to me and my sister in the evening – my dad always encouraged my reading, and regularly bought me books, but this is the one book I remember him reading all the way through – maybe more than once – with us. I suppose it was because he enjoyed it too.

A couple of years later, me and my cousin Georgina would be taken every other weekend – when my uncle had custody of her – to my uncle’s boat on Windermere. It was a 20ish-foot long white sailing boat. He doesn’t have it anymore, but for this one summer, 2005 I think, we went twice a month, and largely spoke about The Hobbit – we knew the songs, and a lot of the stories and lore that was sometimes only briefly mentioned in the book.  I don’t know if we were making up the rest or had some other source of information; perhaps it was my uncle, who was a fan of Tolkien too. Even after seeing the films, for a lot of the scenery described in the book, I was imagining the Lake District, as I remembered it, as the basis for the geography of certain parts of Middle-earth. The scenery is a central aspect of the book, but I’ll talk more about that later.

Since I have watched the films I had come to love The Lord of the Rings almost as much as The Hobbit, but still had never read them. Those films I know inside out – I realised this when I read the book and knew things such as Weathertop also being called Amon Sûl. I’m not double-checking that so I hope it’s right. Between me and some of my friends, The Lord of the Rings is a common cultural reference. I think that this is what Tolkien was trying to create – an authentic, rich and detailed mythology to rival mythologies that took hundreds or thousands of years to arise ‘naturally’. Reading the novel for the first time but having so much prior knowledge of it made it feel like a story I already knew that I was being told well – like the oral storytelling traditions that run constantly throughout the book and are a large part of the cultures of all the Free-peoples of Middle-earth.

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I mentioned the scenery earlier. I’d heard about Tolkien’s writing in The Lord of the Rings that he spent pages and pages describing trees – and he pretty much does, but I thought it was beautiful rather than boring. I chose the extract at the start to show this, and I chose a description from Lothlórien rather than from the Shire because in the Shire the beauty is everyday – for the Hobbits, and to some extent for me, because I had only read The Hobbit beforehand. What really surprised me about The Fellowship of the Ring was the beauty and the clarity of the prose – no-one ever discusses Tolkien as a writer, he’s seen more as a scholar of his own mythology – but the writing stands out to me as equally masterful to the rich content of the writing about Middle-earth. It has, as I said, brilliant clarity, poetic clarity. It is also incredibly objective, which is something I’ve never enjoyed about a book before, but in this case it does create the atmosphere of a well-known, deep and all but inexhaustible mythology, rather than an atmosphere of laziness and because-I-say-so authorial arrogance. I should read a book I don’t like, all I ever do is praise what I read on here.

After reading Chess by Stefan Zweig, I read The Prince of Mist by Carlos Ruiz Zafon, but I didn’t write about it. I enjoyed it, it’s a young adult book and an easy read, but I chose not to write about it so that when I was reading I could enjoy what I was reading rather than think about the article I have to write at the end. I will say though that the dialogue was fucking terrible, but maybe this is the fault of the translator rather than the author. Anyway, what I was going to say was that I read Chess, and the other two that I won’t link, they’re easy to find, Blood Meridian and The Road to Wigan Pier, and they are credible books – literary books, but The Fellowship of The Ring doesn’t seem like them. I think its fantasiness is seen as a slight mark of trashiness, a barely perceptible watermark that means it is most highly-acclaimed by a certain sector of geek-culture rather than by literary culture. I’m aware even now of coming across as nerdy rather than – I suppose I have to say it because I’m clearly thinking it the whole time – intellectual. Writing this is triggering my early high school don’t-be-a-nerd reflex. I’m trying hard to seriously discuss a book about Elves and Wizards, but I’m also wondering why I have to try so hard. The Lord of the Rings is only slightly less realistic than Blood Meridian, but I wrote about that almost as though it was American History.

Perhaps The Fellowship of the Ring would be taken more seriously if, like Blood Meridian, it didn’t offer hope – if the Ring was on Sauron’s hand already. I think people think there’s something childish about hope, and about an underdog like Frodo – who, though, is far less of an underdog in the book than in the films, and is brave, clever and adventurous rather than simply resilient – overcoming insurmountable odds. Literature that values purity and beauty and offers hope that they might overcome cynicism, corruption and ugliness is seen as naïve. I think that forced cynicism and the shunning of childish hope in all circumstances should be left to young teenagers – to me, when I was trying to hide that I liked comic books and fantasy novels and videogames. I’d rather be childish than adolescentish, and The Fellowship of the Ring reminded me of my mind when it was the Shire before the Scourging, and of being childish again.

 

Chess/Stefan Zweig

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Finally, as the deadline approached, we decided to risk the move. McConnor had already put out his hand to the pawn to move it to the last square when he felt his arm abruptly taken, while someone whispered quietly and urgently, ‘For God’s sake, no!’


 

The only thing to do in St Annes is go to the cinema. The tickets are only £3.50, so we go a lot. Sometimes me and my girlfriend, Grace, go to see a film we don’t want to see that much. We just like the cinema. Going to the cinema has since become something I associate with Grace, a particular thing we do together. Grace’s favourite film director, and one of my favourites, is Wes Anderson. It’s semi-fashionable in superhip circles to say that Wes Anderson is obvious, gimmicky and, more recently, too mainstream, but I like his aesthetic style – I like the boldness of it, and think it’s more interesting than the usual ‘realism’ seen in modern films. I also like the way the visual style seeps into the script. Perhaps it happens the other way around. Either way, if an imitation of Anderson’s aesthetics were applied to a non-Anderson script – for example, the film I went to see last night, Dawn of the Planet of the Apes, it wouldn’t come across as an Anderson film, it would come across as the application of an imitation of Anderson’s style to someone else’s non-Anderson script. The point is not Anderson’s directing, though – I don’t know enough about films to write about that. I’m just trying to set the scene. In Norwich, when Grace was visiting me at university, we went to the Odeon – where tickets are more than £3.50 – to see Wes Anderson’s The Grand Budapest Hotel. Both of us enjoyed it, as we expected to. At the end, a message came up on the screen that said the film was based upon the writing of Stefan Zweig. I googled him, as we left the screen, on my phone, and probably saw this photograph –

– and probably read this –

“Stefan Zweig was an Austrian novelist, playwright, journalist and biographer. At the height of his literary career, in the 1920s and 1930s, he was one of the most popular writers in the world. – Wikipedia”

– and this –

Born: November 28, 1881, Vienna, Austria

Died: February 22, 1942, Petrópolis, Rio de Janeiro, Brazil

Education: University of Vienna

Movies: Letter from an Unknown Woman, A Promisemore

Spouse: Charlotte E. Altmann (m. 1939–1942), Friderike Maria Burger von Winternitz (m. 1914–1938)”

– and I probably wondered why, if Stefan Zweig was, less than a century ago, one of the most popular writers in the world, neither me or Grace had heard of him. We went to the nearby Wetherspoons – Queen of the Iceni, I think it’s called – and spoke about the film, and both said we’d like to have a look at Stefan Zweig’s writing, and see if we could see which parts Wes Anderson had used. Then I forgot about all about him, until Grace bought a collection, put together by Wes Anderson, including an introduction by him, called The Society of The Crossed Keys and the novella Chess by Stefan Zweig.

I borrowed Chess from Grace last night. It feels as precise as the effortless prose at only 76 pages. I tend to try not to pay too much attention to a book as an object if I can, because it annoys me when people say, on the subject of Kindles and ebooks, ‘I like a physical book in my hands’. Everyone says it. It’s one of those phrases that, as a result of certain things happening in certain ways at certain times, rise up rapidly into the cliché pantheon. Anyway, despite my conscious retaliation against the anti-ebook cliché, I found myself pleased by the neatness of the book’s size and shape. I read about fifteen pages before I went to sleep, and finished the rest off this morning.

The delicate, clean and – I know I’ve already said it, but – most of all, precise way in which Zweig writes is where the beauty of the novella is. I wasn’t sure then whether to say that the way in which Zweig writes ‘was what I loved about the novella’, or ‘what I enjoyed most about the novella’, but neither accurately describes the way I felt about it – to say ‘loved’ in this context would come across as an exaggeration, perhaps, and to say ‘enjoyed’ would be an understatement – I ‘enjoyed’ The Lego Movie – ‘enjoyed’ isn’t the right word for it. I can only call it beautiful, like the tiny intricacies of a pocket watch or the bones of a small bird. What ‘happens’ in Chess isn’t dull, but it is the beautiful prose, which runs like a cool stream across your hands, rather than what ‘happens’ that makes Chess one of the best short stories I’ve ever read.

I’m not going to say much about the content of the novella, apart from that it is a lot easier to see how it would appeal to Wes Anderson than it is to avoid imagining it in Anderson-style colours and symmetry. The characters are all middle-class gentlemen, and behave as such even whilst angry, and each new character is the most interesting person you’ve ever met – and you do feel like you’ve met them – even the relatively passive character that narrates the story.

I’m going to move away from this half-hearted reviewing of Chess now – I don’t want any of these articles to come across as reviews, but I’m sure they all do, and poorly written and unoriginal reviews too. I’m still trying to find a definite direction for Life Around Books. I think I am doing with each new post. Whilst I’m writing about my own writing, I’ll explain why Chess has inspired me to continue with my own slow-moving writing. Neither of the two previous books I’ve written about on here, Blood Meridian and The Road to Wigan Pier, at all inspired me to write. Blood Meridian is a vast, sprawling epic – a masterpiece – and works of art like that are not encouraging for a young and unexperienced writer. The Road to Wigan Pier is thought provoking, but I would call it a brilliant work of political journalism rather than creative writing. Chess is great writing, but it isn’t written on the ostentatious scale of Blood Meridian – I think that’s why it is inspiring. Both books are surely works of genius, though – I don’t mean to say that because Blood Meridian is relatively long and dense it is better than the short and clean Chess. If the scale of the perfectly executed structure of Blood Meridian meant it was equated with a perfectly executed strategy in a war, Chess – translated on the same scale – would be equated with a perfectly executed strategy in a game of chess.

The Road to Wigan Pier/ George Orwell

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The train bore me away, through the monstrous scenery of slag-heaps, chimneys, piled scrap-iron, foul canals, paths of cindery mud criss-crossed by the prints of clogs. This was March, but the weather had been horribly cold and everywhere there were mounds of blackened snow. As we moved slowly through the outskirts of the town we passed row after row of little grey slum houses running at right angles to the embankment. At the back of one of the houses a young woman was kneeling on the stones, poking a stick up the leaden waste-pipe which ran from the sink inside and which I suppose was blocked. I had time to see everything about her – her sacking apron, her clumsy clogs, her arms reddened by the cold. She looked up as the train passed, and I was almost near enough to catch her eye. She had a round pale face, the usual exhausted look of a slum girl who is twenty-five and looks forty, thanks to miscarriages and drudgery; and it wore, for the second in which I saw it, the most desolate, hopeless expression I have ever seen. It struck me then that we are mistaken when we say that ‘It isn’t the same for them as it would be for us’, and that people bred in slums can imagine nothing other than slums. For what I saw in her face was not the ignorant suffering of an animal. She knew well enough what was happening to her – understood as well as I did how dreadful a destiny it was to be kneeling there in the bitter cold, on the slimy stones of a slum backyard, poking a stick up a foul drain-pipe.


 

We – my sister, my mum and my dad – moved into our new house a few weeks ago. I’m in the kitchen now, and the walls are encased in foul, brightly coloured tiles – lime green, next to a burning orange, next to a pale yellow like a lemon-flavoured dessert, next to a deep purply-blue the colour of the inside of my primary school jumper, next to a greeny-blue the colour of the sea in tacky paintings in suburban bathrooms. My dad has painted over a square patch of them with white tile-paint, and the fumes are exacerbating a pre-existing headache. In our new house, all the books are arranged on four long shelves that run along a section of wall from the door to the kitchen to the window looking out on to the street. After I had read Blood Meridian, I looked over these books for something else to read. I’ve read most of them already – I have more time than money, so I’m running my library down before I buy any more books. I touched the silver spine of The Road to Wigan Pier but didn’t pick it out. It’s the only book by George Orwell that I own that I haven’t already read. It has never appealed to me. I continued to read over the titles of my books. I even picked one out, I can’t remember which one it was now. But then I thought, why don’t I want to read The Road to Wigan Pier? I took it off the shelf and sat down in the living room.

I’d never read it because Northernness is something I should be part of, but feel that I’m not. I was born in Preston, and lived for my first few years in Blackpool. After that I lived in a town halfway between the two – Lytham – and now, since the move, the next town closer to Blackpool from Lytham, St Annes. Geographically I’m from the North, unquestionably. My dad’s ancestry, as far as I know it, seems to be half-Lancashire, half-Yorkshire. My mum’s mum, though, is Irish, and my mum’s dad grew up in Devon. His dad being Welsh, his mother, I’m not sure. So I have strong ancestral ties to the North too, at least on my dad’s side. What sets me apart, though, is how I feel about class; every member of my family as far back as I’m aware of has been working-class. My dad’s a postman, my mum was a secretary at a doctor’s surgery from being about seventeen, and a few years ago became the deputy manager. I’m the first in my line of descent to ever complete college, as far as I know, and I’m quite sure I’m the first to ever attend university. I’m at least half-educated now – in what class does that leave me? And if my children go to university, the second generation to do so, in what class would they be? I’ve always enjoyed reading more than football. Even when I drink, I drink like a poet, not a working man. Attending university in Norwich, surrounded almost entirely by Southern and middle-class friends, I feel Northern and working-class. At home, around my High School friends and my dad’s friends, I don’t know what I am.

When I began reading The Road to Wigan Pier, it immediately took me back to college, and reading Homage to Catalonia, Down and Out in Paris and London, Animal Farm, 1984 and his essay collections, like Inside the Whale, Books Vs. Cigarettes and Some Thoughts on the Common Toad. It’s a very different book to my other two favourites by him – Homage to Catalonia and Down and Out in Paris and London though. I was expected the same sort of prose-journalism, detailing characters and events that he came across throughout the working-class population of the North. There is some of that, of course, but it’s primarily an argument, aimed at the British middle-class of the late 1930s, for socialism, for ‘liberty and justice’, and against prejudice. It’s a report from the field, arguing against the conservative establishment as well as the orthodox socialism present at the time in Britain. He argues against the idealisation of the working-class by the middle-class socialist intelligentsia – he says to them that the working-class do smell, but he says to the snobs of the conservative establishment that it isn’t because they want to, but because they don’t have baths, running hot water, perhaps even soap, due to chronic unemployment and poverty. The 21st Century equivalent of the 1930s argument over the smell of the working-class, taking place between two sides that do not know the working-class, would be the ‘scrounger’ argument. Because right-wing media, for example, the Daily Mail, says that all people ‘on the dole’ are scroungers, and that they are lazy, and that there is work if they want it, left-wing sources argue that none of the people ‘on the dole’ are scroungers. I would say that I was left-wing, but I’d argue in certain areas – Blackpool – those claiming benefits largely have not temporarily fallen on hard times, but are the second, perhaps even third generation to not work, and to expect the government to support their sadly monotonous lives. I know because I’m related to some of them. I also have friends that claim benefits and they are trying – by entering government work placement schemes for example – to find a way to support themselves financially. I suppose what I’m saying is that people at extreme ends of a spectrum are too far away from the middle to see what’s going on.

It’s ridiculous how recent this stuff was too – the squalor, the hunger, the complete exploitation of the working-class by those stacked above them. My grandmother’s mother died when I was about 7 or 8. I think she was born around 1915, so she experienced these things personally, and our lives overlapped. This country has changed dramatically in less than a century. The slums that Orwell describes are Victorian. It’s incomprehensible that in a country with all of the wealth that Britain had then, people were allowed to live in such conditions – that people thought this was the right way to do things.

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It’s surprising the amount that George Orwell seems to have seen coming, for example the lapse in our physical well-being as a result of machines undertaking most physical labour and of our diet switching to processed foods. His prediction that capitalism would not continue, and that if Britain wasn’t convinced by socialism it’d swing to facism is the only major forecast in the book that I’d say wasn’t quite right, at least, not in the way he said it. Obviously, following the Second World War, right-wing opinions weren’t popular in Britain, and the Welfare State was created – council housing, benefits, the NHS etc. But, culminating under Margaret Thatcher in the 1980s, conservativism and capitalism did go on, overtaking both socialism and fascism.

I’ve been making some observations about socialism and about politics in this article, but I wouldn’t dare to make any suggestions, to argue what I think must be done. I don’t think I could pull it off, it’d sound ill-informed. For any off-hand comment I might make, anyone with time on their hands and the ability to use a search engine could put together a vicious counterargument and make me look ignorant and foolish. It would also make me seem like one of the ‘cranks’ Orwell takes steps distance himself from in the book – bearded, ‘fruit-juice drinking’ vegetarians in ‘pistachio-coloured shirts’. I actually am a vegetarian, and I do drink fruit-juice, though I assume that drinking fruit-juice is more widespread today than it was eighty years ago. I haven’t the energy to write politically – I’ll always vote, I’ll always hold opinions, but trying to convince somebody of a political viewpoint you hold is one of life’s great pointless frustrations. I’d rather follow the road to Wigan Pier.

Blood Meridian/Cormac McCarthy

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Dawn saw them deployed in a long file over the plain, the dry wood wagons already moaning, horses snuffling. A dull thump of hooves and clank of gear and the constant light chink of harness. Save for scattered clumps of buckbrush and pricklypear and the little patches of twisted grass the ground was bare and there were low mountains to the south and they were bare too. Westward the horizon lay flat and true as a spirit level.


My girlfriend’s grandparents have a caravan in the Lake District. I went there with her family last weekend, and in the cold, blue silence of the early morning, before anyone else was awake, I finished reading Blood Meridian. When the TV was on, or when people were talking to each other in the small beige-on-beige living room, I couldn’t read it. It needs silence, perhaps because the desert landscapes that are the pages the story is printed on are so cinematic that to talk over or around them is as wrong as talking through a film. So I woke up early, and I read as much as I could, wrapped in blankets on my blow-up bed on the tiny kitchen floor, before the respectful silence the book needs to breathe was disturbed.

I have seen Blood Meridian described as an ‘anti-Western’; there’s no hero in the novel, and I wouldn’t describe the protagonist – the Kid – as an anti-hero. Alex, from Anthony Burgess’s A Clockwork Orange,, is a character I’d describe as an anti-hero, because certain events take place that he is expected by the reader to overcome. You don’t expect the Kid to overcome what he’s faced with – he’s faced with a violent life, and if he has any alternative it doesn’t seem to occur to him, nor is it mentioned to the reader. There aren’t villains in the traditional sense either – almost every character lives for violence and is entirely remorseless. It isn’t a battle between good and evil, it’s an incestuous implosion of evilnesses of every kind, it is the side of the strong against the side of the weak – an animal struggle for survival, but stripped of necessity. Men playing at being animals. To describe Blood Meridian as an anti-Western is to describe it in terms of negatives. It is a novel built from spaces, populated by negatives; each character is a silhouette riding on the line where the red sky and the white desert meet.

I enjoyed the book in the way you enjoy a hike – the recollection of what happened is what’s enjoyable, the actual hiking being exhausting. This isn’t because the book is particularly long, nor is it because the sentences are structured in McCarthy’s essence-first-grammar-later style, which you are forced to adjust to when you begin to read the book – remarkably, it’s the content that is exhausting. Endlessly riding west, endlessly violent. Humans doing the huge variety of things humans do in the extraterrestrial infinity of limitless and uncontrolled desert. By exhausting I don’t mean repetitive, monotonous or mundane. Like the first McCarthy book I read, The RoadBlood Meridian is psychologically taxing, emotionally strenuous.

The best part of Blood Meridian, what makes it so impressive, is the allusion and obscurity that runs with the blood through the text. Some of the crucial elements of the story are obscured in Spanish, the rest are obscured in English. Like the conversations between the characters Toadvine and the Judge, the communion the reader holds with McCarthy is onesided, and at best you know that great truths about life and death, apocalyptic, biblical, universal truths, are being discussed, but you can’t grasp them. You can see them on the horizon, but you haven’t the strength to cross the desert and get close enough to analyse them.